I have a big heart.
I pretend to not have on a fairly regular basis, but with it comes the equal amount of disappointment and hate.
I love offering help. Supporting those who need to ways to improve their lives or those that just simply need a shoulder to cry on. So they know they’re not alone. It’s why i work in car tr efeee. I love watching someone gain their independence and new lease of life.
I hate selfish people. I guess it’s because I so often am not, and it’s a convoluted form of jealousy or envy? Staff complaining about each other. When it’s not that bad. Complaining that they don’t get on with someone – not because the other person is a bully, but they just don’t like them or they smoke and get more breaks than them.
Management don’t do enough to support us.
I know I hear this behind my back on a daily basis. But actually, I know I am not a bad manager. I have a bad manager – he’s not the worst by far, he’s just too busy, doesn’t listen and has the tact of a deaf burglar and the memory of a dementia patient. I give my staff breaks and encourage them to cover each others breaks and before you go crazy –> in care contracts – breaks don’t really exist – so our staff have no paid breaks and if they want a break they’re meant to make it up at the end of shift. Care work is exempt, like nursing and other healthcare professionals from work time directive and all that – SO when I give them the chances to have lunch and fag breaks and stuff, I’m just trying to be a decent person. I know what long shifts are like and I used to do 16hr shifts with no real break – if it was quiet and you got to sit down, that was basically a break. I did night shifts work over 12 days in a row on 12 to 16hr shifts I have done that without food or real breaks other than to grab tea when serving lunches or dinners etc. So I know how exhausting it is. So I don’t make them make up the time at end of shift – but they complain they’re not structured and staff don’t always relieve them… It’s up to them as a team to work together or I will get in trouble for giving them breaks on company pay.
They argue about how to work with our clients, but don’t look at the risk assessments or support plans. so they make stuff up and get annoyed when I tell them not to do that as it can cause confusion.
They got upset that I brought in chocolates and cakes, and pizza and donuts, they got annoyed when we gave everyone thank you cards for doing over time or going the extra mile. They got annoyed when we said well done to everyone but it wasn’t re done when THEY were on shift. They complain they never get updated on stuff.. BUT never read the communication book, which is where I put ALLL the important information because I know not everyone can get on the computers each shift. AND when I hold weekly staff meetings and no one turns up they complain I am not communicating enough….
I would love them to have a shit manager for a month. Just to realise that I am nice. That I care. I get I will always be a bit hated. I am a manager – it goes with the territory of not being a support worker – I don’t want to be their friend. But I demand and expect people to do their job to the standard I would do it. I have NEVER asked them to do something I haven’t done myself. And I show them. I have changed pads, been hit, kicked spat on and bitten I have been pooped on and I have sweated along with them. Somehow, despite the 1000000 things that I am behind on as a manager, because I support my team doesn’t matter.
I hate they put themselves first at work. The guys we support don’t get that luxury.
Every person is asked what would they like the life to be like of a family member if they had to live in a care home… and I swear to the Gods, they don’t think of that once they’re at work.
Somehow… somehow I need them to remember this. I dont know.
I see people doing stupid things and think maybe they deserve to not exist. I see adults be purposefully aweful to each other. You hear such horrendous things on a daily basis.. how hard it is to not gossip at work? How hard is it to WAIT until you’ve left the building to bitch or just get on with someone in a professional manner. There are so many worse things in the world.
Count your blessings and move on.
Or I might snap and kill everyone…. then they won’t have anything to complain about……….
hmmm